If it took this long....

It has been 38 years and I have finally accepted that I will live with anything as long as it meant someone wouldn't leave me.  Hmmm, this could have been really useful information a decade ago!  So, next question...why did I leave the one guy who wouldn't have left me?  Right...no self esteem and feeling of not being good enough....so just blow it all up and run so that you don't have to worry about HIM leaving you, too.  Hot mess people, hot mess!